Celli starts to lose self-esteem from Pa words and soon believes every word.
Another example of Celli feeling unattractive is her and Chug are expressing themselves. She quoted: “She Say, love you, Miss Celli. And then she haul off and kiss me on the mouth. 1. Mm, she say, like she surprise. I kiss her back, say, um, too.
Us kiss and kiss till us can’t hardly kiss no more. Then us touch each other. I don’t know nothing bout it, I say to Chug. I don’t know much, she say.
Then I feels something real soft and wet on my breast, feel like one of my little lost babies mouth. Way after a while, I act like a little lost baby too. ” (page. 47) Celli thinks that all men are unattractive to her by what she experienced so she stop looking at men. She meets Chug and later make love and now she feels she can love again but to the same sex gender. The comfort of being loved reminds her of a baby how they get loved and cherished.
Chug later moves on, meets a men and Celli is uncomfortable with her decision and feels she can’t love no one else and no one will love her other then chug.